...story of my life...

eightyeight

2007-12-26T16:34:00.000+08:00

grant me e serenity to accept e things tat i cant change,

e courage to change things tat i can and e wisdom to noe e differences...

eightyseven

2007-12-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

That day was beautifully spent.

I miss you.

eightysix

2007-11-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

Honestly, i tried my best not to think about what you have said the other day. Didnt expect that simple message saying that "i miss you" can actually lead to a hidden thoughts or rather assumptions that you had in your mind through out all this while that have never crossed my mind since 7 years of close frindship that we had. Im sorry if i have hurt you in any ways and just so you know that it was unintentionally. And even if it happened, it happened for a reason.

Trying to say that im after you just because i have lost my Love? Get this clear, Im happy with my Love, whoever or wherever he or she is right now cause i dont need them to be by my side always. Trying to say that im after you just because i have no one? For your info, i can stand on my own. Trying to say that im after you just because i have no plans? Hello, i have my favourite girlfriends to fill my day. Trying to say that im after you just because you are leading your life happily with your girlfriend? Excuse me, i have my own beautiful life to be cherished with my Loved ones. Trying to say that im after you just because you had a job that i have been eyeing for a guy in that line? You know what, i have got that out of my list way back. Trying to say im after you just because you already have a stable income? Not to be proud of, but the fact is that im earning more than you. Trying to say that im after you just because you have a car? Dream on buddy, cause im getting my own soon.

Get a life, friend. I have never regretted for not accepting your genuine love cause i found a friend in you. A strong friendship that anyone should be envy of. Im sorry if you were to think that i befriend with you for reasons that im using you. Anyway, may you have a blessful life ahead. Take care, buddy.

eightfive

2007-11-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

Can someone PLEASE explain or tell me the real reason why do people need to tell a lie? I dont deny that i also tell lies BUT i dont understand why these people tell the same old lies on things that they cant simply hide or handle. Explainations, reasons or rather excuses given by that idiot are all bullshits when you have the truth with you. Worst, when that idiot themselves keep on trying their rusty skill to deny the fact they are not lying. Feels like giving them one tight "get a life" slap right on their face for a wake up call. No joke. Anyway, im used to it and i dont see any problem for me to just walk away from all those shits. And i guess its also important for all of you to know that im happy with the way i am and i love living life the way im doing it now. So people, dont ever try to dream of screwing up my life ever again.

eightyfour

2007-10-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

i love him, so much more than he could ever love me... countless of unwanted things happened n after all what i've been through, the feelings remain just as strong as it is.. just like the first unknown moment when i fall in love wit you...

eightythree

2007-10-11T15:41:00.001+08:00

IM e FIRST...! YAYY!

eightytwo

2007-10-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

Yey Yey! Nak raya!

i need arnold n sakura BADLY!!!!!!!!

eightyone

2007-09-18T16:43:00.000+08:00

im currently at my werk place, Stewart Inter Sea doing NOTHING... waiting for the time to pass by so i can rush to Nenek's place for buke the soonest.. before tat, will be meeting Along at e usual place for 198.. basically working here, nothing else is superb besides e PAY n e MD... heee... believe me? ol i did was surfing e youtube, friendster n blogspot throughout e whole dae besides chattin wit Along over MSN.. its an EVERYDAE routine la ok! either 9am-5pm or 1pm-5pm... BF is trying his best NOT to "push" me to courses out there to "upgrade" myself n not to waste time just like tat... phew!

shopping for raya is half-wae done wit Mom.. Other half? n e normal shopping spree? im still waiting for my next pay.. hee! again, BF is trying NOT to "remind " me on my limits... especially e amount spent on just bowling wit Dad... hahaha...

thanx Love, i need tos reminders thou!

eighty

2007-08-20T19:43:00.000+08:00

In a week time, im gonna start wit my new work at the Cavendish, Science Park... Great recommendation by my lovely sis, Along... (Thanx!!) But im coping well wit my current job in AVA as a broker thou... But who wud want to decline a much better offer m i ryt?? haha... Howells!

Im preparing my tender btw.. Lets hope tat im not gonna make a wrong choice or i'll be doomed!

Anywae, i'll be closing this blog of mine real soon due to time constraint..

seventynine

2007-08-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

Lots of things happened n its impossible for me to recall evry single tat happened...

Anywae, havin to lose someone who WAS close to us, i admit, it is a great challenge afterall.... Knowin wat Dad have to go thru, i can feel how hard hes tryin to cope and accept e fact tat his father had just completed his duty and returned to Him.. But im glad to noe tat Dad n i was the luckiest person to have heared his voice for the last time ever... N for sure, im gonna miss tat soft voice of his... Alhamdulillah, evrythin went smoothly.. May u rest in peace, Atok.. All of us gonna miss u n we really love you... So much...

seventyeight

2007-06-27T19:28:00.000+08:00

REFRESHING MY TOTS...OF WORDS

tat hurts me dae by dae..

- i need you
- i miss you
- i want u in my life
- i do care for you
- i dont want you to go
- i will change
- please stay

tat killed every single feeling tat i HAD..

- ure unreasonable
- ure impossible
- ure USING me

Thou it HAPPENED, i just wanna let it out wat i had been keeping inside me ever since it happened... firstly, i dont really mind about breakin of promises but if it comes to a certain stage, i guess ders sumthin tat WE shud do to it... agree? But have you done any? No... Second, wen trust is no longer e strength in a relationship caused by YOU, have u done any in order to win e trust back again? No... But surprisingly, i manage to put away ol tos insecurities aside, knowin tat i will end up at e losing end.. Helped n provided u wit e moral support wen ure in need, lifted u up wen ure far down to e ground.. Never,it had crossed my mind to get anythin in return wen u wanted me to stay by ur side olwaes.. But tat one dae finally came wen u blamed me for bein a person whom i tot tat one wud appreciate to have from a fren... Worst, wen it come to ask for a favour, u accused me for using u... Im proud to sae tat uve finally succeeded.. Cause, I HATE YOU....

seventyseven

2007-06-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hello people... Lately ive been too lazy to update my blog... Basically, ders nothin much to write... haha.. Well, im still at the verge of "job-huntin" mood... But its kinda stress la actually... Mom has been pesterin me for a good job... Haiya! i noe i noe... It has olwaes been for my very own good... i noe! Should i join Ngee Ann for my diploma? Or just find a job? EEeeeeeaaaarrrgh! Tis stooopid thing keep on buggin me each n evry dae til i really find a job!

Till den, (best part eveerrrrr) guess its tym to do some shoppin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seventysix

2007-06-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

I NEED A PROPER JOB!

seventyfive

2007-05-27T22:01:00.001+08:00

Gettin closer to e nature? Here i come.........

free n easy

tidbits anyone?

where next?

look at e backgrd....cool..!

one of those tired pose....

im into purple!

nice?

one of the pondoks...

mini fountain?

refreshment anyone?

seventyfour

2007-05-25T13:03:00.000+08:00

Still recovering from my athma attack since last Sunday... While playin games wit e lovelies.. Despite e last minute changed of plan, we managed to have a great tym spent together.. Family games was awesomess! No pics taken coz all of us were having a great good tym.. Haha!

Ok, i missed my graduation ceremony due to my health condition.. Wat a waste, i noe i noe... Still ive no idea wen shall i travel back to sch to collect tat cert... Eeeeargh!But for sure i reli need tat cert e soonest... Shall say "HI" to e workin lyf soon! No? Diploma? Still under consideration la... haiz... Ok peeps! Daa~

seventythree

2007-05-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps! im back! Been bz lately... With nothing... Haha... just too many things happened tat im too lazy to update evrythin... Including e uploading of pics... N tat include e pics of my family gatherin at e ECP where e aunts and uncles had to play e tug-of-war n stuffs lyk tat, movie (JPB) treat from dearest Mom on her birthdae which somehow i tot it was a waste coz me, my sis n surprisingly, my Mom, had our eyes closed most of e tym thruout e whole duration n another midnyt movie (SPIDERMAN 3)wit e cuzzies n tis tym round, Paksu n his girlfren joined in e funn..

Ok nw, i swear, i need a proper sleep... Work in e mornin, bowling wit e guide from Dad n uncles, another words, my team mates, midnyt movie wit cuzzies,jokes n riddles till wee hours, cards, last training wit Dad, Taboo game wit cuzzies n a tournament straight after tat 3hrs of sleep.. No surprise, i screwed up during e game! disappoitment... Consolation yet e four of us walked away wit a trophy each coz we r considered as e top few teams...N ryt after e match n few sets wit e cuzzies, i rushed down to Bugis to grab a last min Mothers' Dae gift for tat beautiful lady i call Mom.. Thank god she love it! Phew!

Ok people... sweet dreams!

seventytwo

2007-05-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

Wats happenin? Seriously, I DONT KNOW.... Home doesnt seem lyk one to me... Evrybody's doin their very own things.. And for me, i dont know wat im doin either... Evrythin dont seem to be the wae it SHOULD be.. Mom, Dad, evryone... But except for tat chubby fella! As crazy as she is... Shes lucky i guess... Dont have much to think maybe... oh well...

Sometyms wen u tot tat tat someone can reli be the someone tat u can count on n turn to wen ure lonely or simply wen u need someone to talk to even wen ure not lonely, uve got to think about it again... Mayb just because youve known he/she for years, straight away u can have them in mind..But youve gt to be extra careful... Coz they can olwaes be tat someone who can bring u down too... Really down... Such a DISAPPOINTMENT! Guess u can only trust yourself in tis world... JUST TRUST YOURSELF ok!

seventyone

2007-04-26T17:18:00.000+08:00

I was down wit high fever for the last few daes... In fact til now i wasnt fully recover but sumhow the stubborn me still wana go out to have a lil fun instead of just rottin at home, lyin down on my bed... Anywae, i just got back from Jurong East to catch a movie insisted by yours truly, the Wild Hogs.... Overall, the movie was ok la.... Not as funny as i tot it was supposed to... Caught tat wit Adam who went straight to his work at Changi Expo after tat and i met Mom n chubby lil sis... Poor him but thank you, sweet... i appreciate tat sooo much...!

Its Mom's birthdae, todae... Me n chubby got her up from her sleep wit a small lil cute chocolate cake wit a candle at exactly 12 midnyt and we sang her a birthdae song together wit Dad... Well, it will be more fun if Along n Abg were there... too bad they were unable to turn up at the very last minute... The dinner will be held tis Saturdae... Which restaurant? I swear, i have no idea coz it has olwaes been Dad's job to choose a restaurant for us....

Ive quit my current job... Coz after the basic pay has been brought down straight to a thousand bucks, i dont c the reason why i shall stay there.... Cmon, its not even enuf for my transport for work ok! Gotta find a new job soon... anyone, any lobang??

National service? hehe.... Good luck to tos, whos turn next! Simply gonna miss ol of u la dude!

seventy

2007-04-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

Been busy for e past few daes... Wit my workin schedule lyk tat, i dont think i can get back to e old times where i cud update my blog tat often... So, sorry peeps!

Anywae, ive got myself a job for myself which i DONT think tat will be my career for long...(mayb due to e workin hour i guess) Haha.. but ATLEAST ders a job for now! Btw its only half past ten in e mornin ok! n im already wide awake! Miracle? haha... Mayb use to wakin up early for work la! God! Im soooo bored la! Off dae but ders no one to go out wit... I noe! i shall have my long long long sleep again! hey! i miss tat alryt!

Ok peeps! im off!

sixtynine

2007-04-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

Just For You, Love...

Once,we were unseparable
we loved to be together
and i thought i knew for sure
that lovers we'd be forever..

I believed it in my heart
but it looks like i was wrong
i guess that our relationship
just wasnt quite that strong..

Fot it didnt take an arguement
a disagreement or a fight
at some point we just started
to lead two different lives..

I know neither of us
wanted for it to end someday
but now we're different people
we're heading different ways..

It hurts so much to go through this
for yet another time
and it hurts to see that im the one who's crying
while you're doing fine..

For im always thinking back
to the good times that we shared
yet you just walk away from them
like you dont even care..

My dear, ive lost so many people
that ive cared about alot
so this last scar will rest
with all the others on my heart..

sixtyeight

2007-04-10T18:37:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullilah... Received a letter from school sayin tat ive completed my Integrated Logistics Management course... Another words, ive passed! Wohooooo...! wat a relief! really! Gonna drag Mom n Dad to school obviously for a family potrait offered by the sch after tat graduation ceremony.. Its on the 23rd May btw... The same date as Along's bdae...! Errr... stil had no idea wat shall buy for her... Nvm... A long long wae to go perhaps...

ok peeps... somethin to ponder... which is better? to love or to be love? bein sumbody or nobody? work or study? Ok, now i admit, im a stucked-up kid... stuck in the middle of nowhere... well at tis age, at a certain point, i agree tat i shud be livin life to the fullest but on the other hand, at tis age also, i gues i shud b thinkin of my future too... future? howells! how i wish tat i cud simply freeze my age! eeargh! niwae, ive been hearin quite alot tat one by one of my frens are gettin engage or rather engaged! sounds scary coz ppl ard me have been thinkin of settlin down while im still hurray2-ing lyk nobdy's business! ok...watever!

seems lyk ive lost my ownself sumhw...no joke! been home late at nyt or shall i consider it mornin?, ate alot but tak pernah kenyang (god dammit, i lost weight instead ok), lack of sleep thou i slept more den 8hrs, pale n skinny just lyk wat my mom saes, "jerangkung"..... ouh my... dont noe wats left tat i can do... too much to think of i guess...

ok peeps! im off....

sixtyseven

2007-04-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

teehee.. sorry peeps coz i missed out a pic of my dearest n cutest baby cuzzie ever!.. isnt she adorable?????

sixtyfive

2007-04-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

sixtyfive

2007-04-02T17:57:00.001+08:00

i wont compromise myself. i am ol ive got.

sixtyfour

2007-03-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullilah... evrythng went as planned... I mean, Cik Yah's weddin... *pics will b publish soon ok* Ouh ya, i was down wit sore eyes for e past one week..in fact even til now la ok! Sunlight has been my enemy n shades has been my bestfren since tat dae one i got infected by my lil sis who unfortunately got tat from her bestfren... And due to e hectic weekend, i accidentally passed on e disease to my dearest Along n Amzar... Sorry hor! Totally unintended... Hee...

I missed few daes of work... Haiya... Anywae tat GPA i got may cover the loss i guess...haha... Now, mentioning about tat GPA (good progress award) from sch, i wonder if e sch really do e thorough checkin on tis matter... me, gettin tat, wud b one miracle i guess... But wateva, e cheque is already added to my acct... hahaha... shoppin spree evrybody! yeyy!

Ok... i guess its tym for to get a real job... yeah babe... if only e meeting wit Uncle Z at our new recordin studio can bring forward i wud haf ask him if he need assistance in his studio... eeargh! wudnt it b great if i cud stay in tat studio 5days per week... ouh well... job job job!!!

Shud stop bloggin now... haha... its painful ok to strain my swollen eyes to focus on e screen...

toodles!

sixtythree

2007-03-15T11:25:00.000+08:00

im super duper bored la!! been rottin at home for the past two daes doin nothin... in fact, i gues tis gonna drag til im fully recovered... fyi, i injured my right elbow which restrict me from doin certain chores includin goin out from the house..(coz theres no wae i gona let anyone else see or saw my swollen arms).. sis was down wit sore eyes n me, being "disable" for e tym being... poor
Mom and Dad.... Unable to help out at Mom's werkplc, therefore, less income for e month... Haiya.. Stoooopid me for actin sooo lyk a small child...Imagine tat, i injured myself in a place where we noe tat its e safest for us to stay, our HOME!

Still not done wit my "soul searchin".... i believe, ders more for me to explore n discover... anywae, my fingers on my right arm is numb... so pardon me wit tis short post ok? ok!

Take care, Nana!

sixtytwo

2007-03-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

Hello... a brand new skin but as usual... still under maintenance coz i wont find me rottin in front of tis computer screen for hours just to complete ol tis blogskin task....

Get back to u people soon ok? ok!

sixtyone

2007-03-08T18:14:00.000+08:00

hello people... Firstly, i havent edit my template so yarh, u will have a lil prob wit tat display pic of mine on the top left hand side... so, sorry for tat... hehe.. wait till i change my blogskin k? ok! Second, sorry for the short update on the last post coz i dont really have the mood to type out evrything.. especially with ol my project or rather points noted for my report is ol over my room plus my logbook n files for reference... so, one good news, im done with the attachment, presentation n lastly, (phew!) REPORT! Another words, IM DONE WIT SCHOOL...

Currently, ive been working wit Mom at her werkplace while "searchin" for a REAL n SUITABLE job for myself... But guess i will start tat "serious" job-huntin after my aunt's wedding, End-March... Coz seriously im in the mood to hurray2 first (which surprisingly, my mom agree to it)... haha... Cant really wait for the kecoh2 n the rewang2 coz tats the tym where we will have the get together session wit ol the long-lost cuzzies... Got my hair done, clothes tailored but i have yet to do my shoppin for accessories, make-ups n (maybe) a pair of heels for tat dae...Mom, i need some cash please! eeeargrh!

Anywae, sumhow, i miss the beach... the smell of that salty water n the breeze... Haiya... Shall set a date for another heart-to-heart session wit dee again n hopefully we will get to see that stooopid crab that WALK STRAIGHT n tis tym round, we will make sure that we will definitely get tat action recorded! i noe im not making sense to u people... But i swear, dee n i witnessed tat ok!

Ok people, im dead beat n i swear, i really need some sleep...

toodles!

sixty

2007-03-06T10:35:00.000+08:00

Ouh k people... im in a dead shit! i cant recall if ive collected my GCE O level cert from my sec sch or i simply misplaced it... Haiya... no choice but to call up the sch to check...Stooopid me! Tell me how m i suppose to go for interviews??

Ok... im done with sch lyf... really? haha.. i guess so... Get the cert n off i go... If anybody were to mention about me, steppin into the workin lyf, haha... no one can ever imagine tat...

really hope tat i can get tat front desk executive pose at one of tos gyms at Thomson! mom, pray for me ok! haha...really got nothin to do wit my field but nvr mind... i need to get a job for myself lar or i will be a job-hunter permanently...

fiftynine

2007-02-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I swear im one of the happiest person in the whole wide world, todae! Hahahaha.. Because.... Todae, is my last day of attachment la!!!! Its like wow! Finally.... And now, here comes all the shits... I mean report, powerpoint slides and all... Haiya... Anyway, im done with that pathetic log book and ive started on my report... Well, i still have more to complete... So yar, pardon me for not updating my blog for quite sometime ok... Anyway, most probably, soon this account will be deleted and i will have a new one instead... Get from me the new add k? ok!

Surprisingly, the REAL person shows the true colours and somwhow, a decision was made by me, myself... That i just dont wanna remember anything with no regrets (hopefully)... Though the pain is killing me dae by dae, be strong, and i believe i can eventually do it.. Yes i noe, i can... Trust me, its just the matter of time... Im tired and disappointed in evrythin... yes, EVRYTHIN....

Ouh well... Now, im done with school... But i still cant picture myself steppin into a workin lyf... Hahaha... Even my parents cant do it either... Continue with studies or just start a career? OK... I dont noe.... Can i let Mom to come up with a decision for me? Hahahaha... I hate decisions-making to the core ok!

To me,
can u pls get back to ur normal-self??

fiftyeight

2007-02-15T08:37:00.000+08:00

First, sorry for not updating my blog for quite some time and second, sorry for i dont think i can really recall every single thing that happened due to my short-term memory... Hee.. Pardon me ok? Ok!

Well, i hadnt been home for like a week due to some reasons but my days so far, had been good i should say... Went boatq for like 3 days in a row and not forgetting the beach... Wonderful time spent... Work has been sickening as usual but im left with just 5 working days to end this sickening attachment! Yey! Then back to school to complete the presentation and report submission which i havent lay my hands on any.. Haha... But who cares, i just wanna meet my friends and do the crapping all day long.... And not forgetting my nasi lemak, my dry fishball noodle, my chunks of pineapple with asam and my ice-blended longan at the Cafe Heaven.... Ouh , and plus my Burger Buster! Its gonna be super duper yummy yum yum! But but but.... The journey is gonna kill me for sure! Mom, i want a car for myself please!

After receiving the msg from sweet lil old boyfriend the other night about him, getting another nephew, ive been wondering how is Ryan exactly look like... Hahaha... Till i dreamt about it... Sweet chubby lil fellow, running around the house with chocolate filled his mouth, chasing his lil bro who is still a few months old and ive yet to know his name...

Cant wait for the trip to kampong for "holiday" with the families this weekend... Haha... Uncles, get your cash ready for the mercun... Aunties, get yourself ready to mess up the kitchen and the barbeque pit.... And my sweet-yet-crazy lil cousins, lets get ready with the waterbomb bags!!!!!!! Dont worry, i'll prepare more, more and more of it! Lets bring the water guns, pail, pipe and what-so-ever out ok!!!! Lets have funnnnnnn!!! Ouh yah! Cousins, dont forget to bring extra cash for Bingo and Cards! wooohoooooo!

Anyway, thanks sweet, for that lovely ~~half-bloomed~~ baby blue rose!

fiftyseven

2007-02-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

She hates life....

Pardon her for all her wrongdoings....

fiftysix

2007-02-05T17:24:00.000+08:00

Im tired... And im super duper wufer bored!! Finally im done with that stooopid report for billing which was stored for me since the 1st Jan... Thanks to that fatty bum bumm, im glued to my seat since morning! Can i hate her please.....? She suck ok! And that new-blurr old man keep on coming to me asking me this and that as if im too free or all those shits... Why cant he just turn and ask that fatty old lady behind him for clarifications.... Haiya... so so so stoooopid la.... And now, i swear, my back aches like hell after hours of sitting upright and staring at the screen and numbers...! No kidding!

Anyway, the Spore-Thai match was great! Plus the shouting, yelling,cursing and all, it was awesomessss ok! And, my prince in shining armour, Ridhuan, really did a good job... Mommy, i want him please...Nak jugak!

Ouh ya, shits happened yesterday... But then again i dont wish to bring it up... Shits happen, so yarh... Just let it go ok... No point dragging it on... And even if i were to drag those shits, things will and can never be the same again...Eeargh! Mommy, i love you! Just you ok!

Now i have no idea why im still in the office at this hour AND, just a gentle reminder to myself, tomorrow, i must be here again by 6.30 in the morning... Yes, i repeat morning... Wonder if i can open my eyes on time... bleargh!

fiftyfive

2007-02-02T08:33:00.000+08:00

Cant believe im already at work now... Reached few minutes ago and thanks to K.O.B for the wake-up call(s) and thanks to that stooooopid dream of mine! I wouldve sleep peacefully throughout seyy....!! Dont know why, but not only recently, i simply cant get up from my bed and get to work... Bed + fluffy pillows + dearest doraemon + comforter = HEAVEN...!!! Guess even Mom and Dad had given up on me... Haha... I want to get back to my bed and my sleep can...? pish ah... I hate the feeling of getting up early in the morning, dragging myself into this blarddy office, sitting and staring at the computer screen blankly, doing whatsnot and excluding the free Ben n Jerry's ice cream.. Haiya... Can somebody come and save me please... NAK BALEK LA SHIT....!!! Anyway, im left with exactly 16 days to come to an end of this attachment... So, Yeyy!!

Apart from the normal routine, nothing much happened lately... Leading life just like how it was suppose to be... Past will always remain as past and thank God, im a lil more stronger now than i was before...*thumbs up!* But afterall, it will be unfair to me and others if i were to use my past as a lesson learnt... " i give people a chance to earn my trust" and "i can give without loving but i cant love without giving" is no longer in me.. How?? tell me what shall i do? Ayoyo...

Anyway, moments spent together and memories of the past, is much appreciated and will always be kept at heart... And baby, maybe, its time for a new begining......

fiftyfour

2007-01-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

Given myself some time to really think about all those messages sent by my sweet lil old boyfriend yesterday, asking all kind of questions about me and hows my life has been... I was glad that he atleast show that he cares but on the other hand, questions after questions keep on running into my head.. Questions that i can hardly find any answers to everything... What exactly that i shouldve been doing right now? eeargh!

Anyway... people, just take your own sweet time to adjust your bag and leave me to board the train alone ok! And let everyone in that particular cabin smile at me.... Just me ok.... And after that just play chak-chak with me....

fiftythree

2007-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

~SATURDAY~

Didnt go to the office = nice long sleep
So much of my breakfast with my family = all out except for me
Sing sing sing and sing for myself = no one to entaertain me
Short NAP + rain = superb
Kallang stadium (Singapore vs Malaysia) = excitement
Screaming + shouting + clapping + banging = FUN + WORN OUT
Supper = Nasi Lemak + Coke = Sssshiok!
Early breakfast = Macdonald's hotcakes + ice milo = Yummy!

~SUNDAY~

Didnt get to sleep = zombie look-a-like
Quick shower and then out with the whole family = sloppy me
East Coast for lunch = simply fabulous
Geylang = where i stayed in the van to look after kids
Tired = Home = as i cant dragged myself to join them for bowling

fiftytwo

2007-01-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

People, im pissed! Bear with all the vulgarities that you going to find in this post alright...

Suprisingly, that unfortunate mother fucking bitch stepped into this office with that mother fucking look, stomping all over the place as if its hers! It was damn fucking irritating ok!!!! Just her luck that im wearing a skirt right now ok or i will have already give her that flying kick of mine! hahahaa.....

Before she came in i was asked to REDO everything what she had done or rather changed the CS Online System that ive been doing all this while before her...She came in and told off me from my seat cause she need to use that blarddy computer of mine! What the fuck!!!! She have her VERY OWN DESK to do whatever shits she want to do ok!!! And now, why must it be mine?? Stooooopid kan!! Tell you people what, she really pushed me to the limit where i can tolerate no more ok... Liyana dragged me to her desk in order not to see me venting my anger all around... So ya.. Let that fatty asshole had the hot seat where she saw my workpiece and she argued with me... Though we are like 8 or 9 years apart and i used to look up at her as my elder but now,this point of time, she was just as small as the crockroach that i saw behind that big cargo outside my window... Argue and argue till that stooopid manager arrives to the scene...And call both of us to the GMO... She walked in and THROW the confidential documents that she stooopidly brought home at Suzanne, who happened to be the receptionist, and told her off that she's quiting... My god!! I was shocked ok... And malu to have that kind of bitch as my (unfortunately) cousin! And guess what, i also dont know why but this is wat i said to her.. "you dont have to quit, cause uve been fired..." ... Hahahaha.. Out of point kan... As if she works for me... But who cares....Step into my line and you will have to bear with it...!

So.. Yesh! OUT SHE GO.... But that mother fucking bitch left all the shits to me before i can even make her go thinner! Shit her! Now ive got to settle everything ON MY OWN... Anyway, i know i can do it... So whatever la! All i know, right now, IM PISSED!!!!!! eeeargh!

fiftyone

2007-01-25T08:58:00.000+08:00

Thank God, she wasnt here at this very moment ok... Or else i will definitely throw all this blarddy documents straight to her face...! Fancy leaving all these shits to me without informing or updating me all the details and just went on leave...! Now tell me what am i suppose to do? Ive set all the formats and all and told her not to change anything so we can atleast share the tasks... Stoopid fellow, just stepped into this department, now shes acting like a big shot just like her size... I dont care... For all i know, im not going to settle all this shits for her just because (unfortunately) shes a cousin of mine.... And for sure, before i leave this place, im going to leave all kinds of shits JUST FOR HER ok! Though im just few months old in this pathetic company, ATLEAST, i know more than she does ok...Tell her, TRY ME ok!

And now, this heart of mine keep on giving me problems... Its tough ok... REAL TOUGH...All those stress, the irregular heartbeat and all, is simply killing me day by day... Stooopid doctors cause they cant even identify that sickening illness that ive been suffering... Wait till im dead, after the postmortem, only then can tell the cause of my death...! Even that, they are unable to tell me cause for goodness sake, im already DEAD....! Can i dig their heads for their brains and feed the rats?? Stooooooooopid them..!

Why life hasnt be fair to me eh? Anybody have the answers for it? For the matters of love, health and whatever shits, i will always be at the losing end...! eeargh!

Apart from my beloved ones, can i choose to end my life now than to suffer these unwanted pains? Please....

fifty

2007-01-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

SOCCER SOCCER SOCCER and more SOCCER!! JUST GO KICK THE BALL OK!!

fortyninee

2007-01-24T10:39:00.000+08:00

I just DONT UNDERSTAND these people, whom for no reason, have this kind of changing attitudes... What more if you, had done NOTHING wrong... At this point of time you can see this someone behaving so sweet, caring and whatsoever good words that i can use to describe that sort of behaviour BUT within the split second, he can give you that fucked-up attitude.... WEIRD isnt it??? Just a phone call from you, with GOOD INTENTIONS at the back of your mind, to ask about that someone's well being, BUT end up, you get this sickening response from that ungrateful fellow... Wake up and get yourself a life please! Accept me and treat me like a FRIEND, or, just tell me straight to my face that you are GENUINELY NOT INTERESTED... Sicked and tired of that screwed-up attitude of yours, keep on saying "WE COULD ATLEAST BE FRIENDS" but the real fact is that you cant bring yourself to do it.... Three words, DONT BE FAKE!

fortyeight

2007-01-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hello... Hadnt been home for the past two days so thats the reason why i hadnt been updating this blog of mine... Or maybe theres too much to write? i dont know... Anyways, this is MY blog so people, its either you read it or you dont alright.. And as for the readers or rather the unexpected readers, i would greatly appreciate if you people try to atleast stop assuming on every details that had been posted in every single post of mine... Its mainly about the story of my life, what happened, whats happening and whats going to happen next... So yarh, if you people got any doubts in mind, please feel free to ask me for clarification ok? ok!

~Monday - Friday~
Weekdays had been such a bore cause all i did was get myself beautifully dressed for work and straight back home after that... Hahaha... I have been dragging myself to the office every morning with these thoughts at the back of my mind that this shits is going to end real soon...And imagine, it was from that very Monday to Friday ok!

~Saturday~
But the Saturday was not bad afterall... Didnt go for work just for the sake of the soccer-play with a group of friends as early as 8am.. Went for a field at Commonwealth but somehow after we found ourselves running all over the field like clowns, we decided to go for street soccer... And after which i dragged myself down to Bedok to meet my craziest-yet-lovable friend of mine, DINAH MARINAH before we headed to East Coast Park for a private heart-to-heart session... With the breeze plus the waves and the sun, it was simply a Superb Saturday ok! And and and... I know what im going to tell you people now, you are not going to believe me... i saw a crab that walked straight! REALLY! Dee was also there and she saw it too.... Ok... Ive tried convincing someone about what i saw but somehow as i expected, it doesnt work... So no point if i were to really spent my time convincing the rest of you right? But still, i saw it! Anyway, back to main story, after ECP, went to the Parkway Parade which i have never been to, to have a late lunch or early dinner also i dont know... And straight back to Along's place with the long bus ride...*i simply loves bus rides* And why Along's place? Ouh... Cause we had our family gathering there and im loving it ok!

~Sunday~
Woke up at 11 in the morning... To find myself something to eat and to "look after" Along's property as they went out to Geylang with Mom and Aunties... But i ended up falling asleep again till 5 plus in the afternoon... It has been such along time since the last time i really had that kind of sleep ok! But now my back is aching like hell maybe because of the aircon or what also i dont know la... Or maybe after the long hours of lying down on the bed...

~Monday~
Hadnt been to work... Reason being, i woke up late and im so not into dressing up when im already late... So before i really went to work with that stoopid look, might as well i continue my sleep.. But somehow this stomach of mine started to make all kinds of music so instead of i cooked for myself, id rather help Mom at her workplace... And there i go...

As for today's, i'll update you people some other day ok? ok!
And phuck to this irregular heartbeat of mine, its killing me day by day.....!

fortyseven

2007-01-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

All those late-night-nonsensical conversations which filled with unbelievable stories, unlimited laughters, both crazy and lame jokes and even unnecessary attitudes finally turned out to be a late-night-serious conversations afterall.....! Complicated issues that somehow we knew that it shouldn't be brought up at any point of time, in any conversations, eventually reached to its peak where we had to clarify and thanked God, we still manage to get ourselves into a safe zone.... One thing will somehow lead to another... So yeah... Risks is everywhere... It either you take it or leave it..

By the way, the silence turns to awkward but now, it was blown away... Just like that... I need to clear my mind off the pain... I am strong because i had to... I can't continue to hate and i can't continue to be depressed... Another words, i have to be alive once again... I can pull this off and for sure, YES I CAN!

fortysix

2007-01-16T10:10:00.000+08:00

Ok peeps... With my manager around, i have already nothing much to do, now imagine, shes gone...I really have nothing to do la ok! Chatting, singing, messaging and game-ing is all what i do here, ~~at work~~... So tell me how does it sounds? Having my great time? Hell NO ok! Im ouh-so bored la.... Wish i could just grab my things and get out of this sit of mine and head back home to enjoy my date with my BED! Yeah... I WISHED!

Anyway... Any idea how does it feels like when you realised that you have got your own self STUCKED into a situation where you will have to make a decision for yourself, your future... A situation where you might have to decide whether to be just friend or more than a friend with that someone whom you know you LOVE! What more if it does NOT only involving just you and that someone, BUT also your beloved family... Ouh my... I simply ~~HATE~~ all these decision-making ok! phfffft!

Ouh well, all the best to me...!

Things that have to be done/owned:

night at the museum
~~school for scoundrels~~
~~topshop jacket~~
~~zicoo wristwatch~~
~~stress-free~~
~~new cellphone line~~
on-site report
powerpoint presentation
new hair cut
a design clothing on Cikya's wedding
heels

Errrr.... Theres more to come! *winks*

fortyfive

2007-01-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

How was the birthday celebration? Ok... It was beautifully spent for School for Scoundrels, the beach and dinner... Everything went smoothly and great until i reached home and found myself into this guilt...

Here the story goes... Went out as usual, this time, without having any negatives thoughts at the back of my mind and im enjoying every moment of it... Only when i reached Cik Im's place at ard 12 midnight, and i know its time for me to check my cellphone for any birthday wishes.. Anyways, it was so damn weird as i dont receive any messages when im out or maybe i just dont feel the vibration or hear any sound from my cellphone... So, another words, my cellphone ROSAK ok!!!! Got it? So, i got my card, changed into my sis's phone and still i dont receive anything except for a call from Dee... Ok.. So got it changed back and got one of my uncles to "repair" that stooopid phone of mine, and ONLY THEN i managed to retrieve all the messages and missed calls.. So sorry peeps for the late replies and late thanks for all your best wishes...

As for my sweet lil old boyfriend, im so sorry that you cant get through me on time... I swear it was really an unintentional thingy... Its nothing of that sort of what you're thinking... But to get a best wishes from you, it is more than what i could ever ask for... Once again, thanks...

And last but not least,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, NANA..............

fortyfour

2007-01-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

Been sleeping the whole day like nobody's business... Feeling soo sick cause im down with a flu, bad cough and what more also i dont know.. Anyway young man, for sure, the two tubs of Ben & Jerry's is not the cause of it and im NOT a weak person ok! *winks*

Ermm... Waiting for a call or a msg from this young man to update me with his bad or good news about his match.. *better be a good one ok, smell you!* Haha.. So much of wanting to go there and give the moral support... Ouh well.. Next time ok? Ok!

Two more days, pooof, i'll be a year older... And that makes me errr.. 20 years old? Ouh god... Dont make that sound so awful please.. And by the way, isnt that the same digit on that someone's jersey? *roll eyes* Haha! Anyway, got a simple lecture from dearest Mom.. And i guess i shall have to start with the "purpose of living" any sooner cause Mom will love me more for that... Right Mom? Right!

Ok peeps! Tooodles!

* smelly you, i want my chupa chups! *

fortythree

2007-01-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

Here i am, rotting in front of this screen with so much of nothing to do.. Really! And guess what, i got something that i really have to share with you people! Haha..

Now im enjoying my Ben & Jerry's ice cream to the very bits of it... I can't make up my mind on which flavour so i just took these two tub.. Yes, TUBS, all by myself! Haha... A crazy concoction of chocolate ice cream & vanilla ice cream mixed with fudge brownies & gobs of chocolate chips cookie dough AND a collision of chocolate ice cream & vanilla ice cream mixed with heath bar chunks, white chocolatey chunks, peanut butter cups & chocolatey covered almond... Oh my, it was super duper yummy ok!

Sorry young man, you're so far away to enjoy this tasty food with me here! Promise we will have it together one fine day ok! For now, im finishing the second tub and off i go...

fourtytwo

2007-01-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

Hello people...Im back!

Ok, i know it had been quite "some time" since the last blog i updated... Now, here it goes..

We learnt from our past, studied our mistakes and i guess we tried so hard to hold on to it to save the precious moments, precious relationship.. till we don't even realise that it is actually going to hurt ourselves, our feelings... But overall, life itself is a risk... Whats more, love? So ya...we have got to learn to let go of whatever which is not meant to be ours... The fact is, it hurts...truly hurts! But still, i believe, theres more to come... So, lets live life to the fullest alright.....!

As per you people know, its a brand new year... No new resolutions cause i have yet to accomplish the previous years resolutions...Haha! One thing that i really want you people to know, ive started with a brand new life... A brand new me? Nah...i dont think so cause im still as stubborn, crazy n lazy as before... Its the new atmosphere that im breathing, the old friends that i admit ive neglected, the new friends ive made... And thanks to these people, my life hasn't been such a bore ok! Im loving you people to bits!

fortyone

2006-12-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

Ok...Many things happened and still happening but as usual, NO sad stories ok!

Dad had just got his new machine, GSR400.. Haha.. I mean, new bike... Just dont know what has got into him cause this is the first time he's into Suzuki... All tis while it has always been Honda or Yamaha... Ouh well... Told him to wait for me but he went without me... Ok Dad, just go... But just as he promised, im his first pillion...Heh... Gonna love him more for that... Comfy seats, smooth ride, good run, what more to ask? Simply cant wait to have another date with you, Dad!

forty

2006-12-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Current music

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me

You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone
'Lone, 'loneWhy, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms

I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
ow did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

thirty nine

2006-12-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

Ok peeps...Tell you what, im feeling this feeling that had been for years since the last time i felt this feeling...muahaha... Get it? Ouh well...*winks*

By the way, just got back from my aunt's place... Celebrating a mini birthday party for Amzar and Nadiah... Im lack of sleep i guess... Yesterday, slept at 3plus but its worth it la caused i hadnt been talking to Along for quite some time already... I mean a super real talk ok... But that excluding all those hours of sleep that ive missed for the past few days ok... Work, work and work...Oh gosh! Cant wait till this attachment is over ok! And i have yet to think about the offer about joining the company that they offered me the other day...*im left with 4 more days to think*

Im counting down....4 more days, we have reached 3 years of courtship...heh! Achievement? Hell yeah babe!
And that is going to be" the day when im going to make it a perfect day for you"...

Love love, im waiting.....! *winks*

thirty eight

2006-12-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

Well....Many many things happened, obviously many many things to blog....BUT....As usual....Im LAZY... Maybe i'll update real soon ok??

Should i join them for the KL trip??? Or shouldnt i??

thirtyseven

2006-12-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

Ok...Im currently at my aunt's place...Just came back from sending the boyfriend down to the carpark to take his bike out for Ayen to have the "try out" session... Yeah, i was standing there like a lamp post hearing the practical advise from the boyfriend to cuzzie about clutching and changing of gear and stuffs...Ouh well... I dint even get the chance to try out la ok! Stingy lil boyfriend...Reason being, im a girl, fear that i cant handle the machine if i happen to lose balance or whatsoever shit... Phfft!

Continued my shopping, for accessories, this time round...Planned to go with lil sis but ended up with Mom, Ayen and that boyfriend of mine to Bugis...Had Old Changkee while waiting for Mom and lil sis from Vivo City to get that bubbly girl her MP4 then straight for dinner as all of us was sooo hungry for food... Bought necklaces and earings to match with all those tops and bottoms that i bought the other day AND got a pair of skirt from Mom! Gonna love her more for that...Heh..

Oh yes! Mom and lil sis took a cab home while Me, Ayen and the boyfriend waiting for another cab cause theres no way we gonna squeeze ourselves into ONE cab right...And guess what, we waited for like TWO HOURS for our cab after Mom got her cab home..Imagine...Its TWO HOURS ok!!!!! It took sooo long for that stooopid operator to get us a cab! We ended up paying for that booking fare and that midnight charge!!! Imagine how pissed we've got..When we reached,i called Mom to inform her upon our arrival,they are already sound asleep ok! Im going to lodge a complain!! Phfft!

Now im dead beat after all those task done at work, shopping and god dammit, the cab thingy... Guess by the time im done with blogging, that sweet lil old boyfriend must have already reached home...So once i received his call, to bed, here i come..........!

thirtysix

2006-12-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

Sadly said,things changed.. It dont seemed to be as usual...

thirtyfive

2006-12-02T11:20:00.000+08:00

Ok peeps...Just had my EARLY shower...Yeah! I simply cant drag myself to work today...So yes, im going to spend this time to get back all my sleep and mywatching vcds "sessions"....

Yesterday went to Jp with Ayen cuzzie n lil sis to catch DHOOM:2... Its a 3hours movie...*its a hindustan movie, so wat do you expect?* And i really got my back strained this time...The theater was like so packed la ok...With all the talks around me,its packed with the Punjabs people i guess... *i understand their language ok!* Overall, the story was great...Better than DHOOM...

That idiotic-yet-lovable boyfriend turned me mad yesterday ok! Im kinda pissed off actually...But i dont bother to blog everything la anyway....Why waste the time on this ~~stooopid~~ thing am i right?

Now i need to tidy all the mess in my room cause it has been quite sometime since the last time i had the spring cleaning of this room....And when Mom's back, she gona love me for that! heh! Toodles!

thirtyfour

2006-11-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

Reached home from work, had dinner with Dad n Along, played Family Feud Along and now here i am blogging....

Well... "Something interesting" did happened at work just now... Yeah, its between me and a mother fucking bitch... Ouh well, she's my boss's unfortunate daughter... Yes, I repeat MY BOSS'S DAUGHTER! I happened to read this blog (which the website was already saved in my desktop in the office when i started using it).. Find out that it belong to that SLUT.. And worst, i saw my name, yes, MY NAME in her blog...To my shock, she cursed n fucked me up in her blog just because i used her comp a sat at her place for like for the last few weeks or rather days...Its like WHAT THE FUCK isnt it?? Well, she was just like 15 years old ok so "pardon" her la... Btw for your info, it wasnt me who chose to sit at her place ok...I WAS ASKED TO by my manager cause she merely do what she have to do like JUST UPDATING us with the new order...Just cant wait til she gets her fucking fat ass out from that office ok! Yeah, i did confront her infront of everyone in the office...Including infront of the GM's WIFE! I dont even care a less ok! Im there to do my attachment thingy and not to mess around with any trouble...Ive had enough in school..Haha..So she was the one who stepped into my line, so there she goes! Ended up im the one who deserves that place... Soooo long SLUT!

thirtythree

2006-11-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

I just logged off from bbdc.com, checking my account for my driving license thingy....GUESS WHAT???? It has already expired la ok!!! I received that stupid letter of renewal but i NEVER read it properly and got myself into this shit! I missed that stooopid lil date printed overleaf and thought i had until this december to renew that shit...! BUT it was only until 6 NOVEMBER! Ok...now, its my fault ok!!! Stoooopid mistake....! Time,Energy n God, MONEY are wasted!! Hundreds of dollars gone just like that!!!! Stoooopid me! And hell yeah, my parents was like so mad at me! Cause they are the ones that keep on asking me to go for pracs and all... And yes, including the renewal of whatever shit la ok!

Now i dont think they will provide that sum of money for me anymore so i guess i will proceed with my class 2A using my own bucks and get my dream bike out...After all these years, and finally....Mom was against the idea but i think, nothing going to stop me this time...If i say i want it means i really want it...Come on Mom...You know i love you thou i admit that im stubborn...! And dear Dad has got nothing to say...Hes not against or with the idea so i guess, anything goes for him...Once ive got my pay, to the bbdc next!

Bb is out for a meeting about the closure of BTPH for renovation...And i guess that bitch is going to be there too cause that bitch is one of the staff...So thats make her one of those PH SLUTS! YES SLUT CAUSED THEY MAKE THEMSELVES TO LOOK PRESENTABLE AND SHOW THEMSELVES OFF TO THE RIDERS HOPING TO GET ON THEIR BIKE FOR A RIDE! Well...i dont wish to know any shit about that bitch la ok... And Bb, if you are reading this, help me to get her to read this too...A simple message for her,

Dear Bitch,
Here's a lil advise for u...If you mess with my man, i'll be the one to break it to you...So find your own and leave mine alone cause he's mine and i cant take no pigeons trying to take my baby..Now you're walking in the danger zone, if i touch you i'll b wrong...

thirtytwo

2006-11-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after work...Headed to Ayen's place to meet the rest...Had fun with cousins and all *total of 12 peeps* at Escape Theme Park...Excluding the sensitive moment with the boyfriend at the starting part of it...Things really got out of hand and im really sorry for what ive done...Sorry Bb...Ok..Lets leave this part out ok!

Well...we went for the haunted house,the only thing which i find it a bore,flippers,viking and more...And, the best was the wild n wet! Poor boyfriend got really soaked up after ONE ride with Ayen...Hahaha..Hes cute though! And for sure i love him for that....! ermm...Not much pictures taken cause everyone was enjoying every ride and every moment...Had our ice cream and proceed to BK for our dinner...As usual, had my mushroom swiss to full "part" of my empty stomach...We were heading to the bowling alley as planned after dinner but none of us knew that the actual place had been demolished..So no backup plan,we took the MRT straight to City Hall for bowling at Marina Square..Again it was fully booked...Then we went to the arcade to kill some time and headed back home...Along's place, to be exact...

From Pasir Ris to City Hall, and City Hall to BoonLay, my stomach started to play a new song... Haha...So the poor boyfriend had to queue with me for the nasi lemak cause the rest dont want to miss that Liverpool match...And while enjoying the food, Bb received a call from Boi saying that he was stucked at Ang Mo Kio....So he had to rush there asap...So he left, i went to bed!

That was for my Saturday...And now for today...

Just came back from Jurong superbowl with Dad n lil sis...Had two game each,den proceed back home cause the place was crowded with this bunch of shit people who simply dont know the etiquette of playing...Me n Dad got pissed off cuase we cant really had the chance to concentrate or even had a good throw....Kind of waste of money actually...So here i m blogging..

Mom still out with my makciks...And God, im hungry ok! The boyfriend is sound asleep so theres no way i can wake him up cause no matter how hard i try,if he cant means he cant...so y waste my time on it...? But im so darn bored la ok...simply dont know what to do...Guess im going to do my ironing for tomorrow and watch some cds to entertain myself..Hahaha...Sounds pathetic isnt it? ouh well....

thirtyone

2006-11-22T21:44:00.000+08:00

Well...i admit, i hadnt blogged that much...sorry cause ive got a little tight up...so here it goes...

Just got back from Jp, just to watch Step Up (peeps who loves dance,go catch it) with the boyfriend...Yes, finally...after so long of "persuading" for a little free time...And then off he goes....To meet his friends for bowling...And here i am sitting in front of this screen...Mom n dad was fast asleep...Too tired i guess..Poor them...And tell you what, watching that movie reminds me of my lovely dance club when im in my secondary school days...heh

Went to see a doctor,and ive got a 2 days mc...Flu, soar throat and backache... If things doesnt turn out well within this week, ive got to go for an x-ray for my back...*told you mom,i just cant work in the office*...Even make-up cant really cover how pale i looked ok....Lost 3kgs within weeks or rather days...I was encouraged to have proper meals and not to miss them...What the heck??...im already a big eater la ok...Simply dont know what else i should do...Maybe its time for a thorough check up i guess...Or maybe the weather?? Ouh well...Whatever la ok!

Love life has been ok la so far...As usual, ups and downs...I guess im being paranoid nowadays and the poor boyfriend has been tolerating all those shits that ive been putting up with..BUT serve him right for what he had done...*if you're reading this bb, i guess you should know it very well what im trying to say here*...Nothing changed, the love is still as strong as before though sometimes it will really get out of hand...

Love him to bits...

And now, im done with the talking...

thirty

2006-11-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

Finally... get hold of my lovely keyboard again...after so long...haha...just reached home from fetching my parents back from the airport...after their long long holiday...kinda pissed la but its ok...why? cause they only bought for me a dress, an adidas shirt n shades....THATS ALL! But nevertheless, thnx mommy n thnx daddy....Good enough that you're back safely...Life had been a mess since you people are away...miss you all lah!

Chances given, so its all up to u b, to make it work...

twentynine

2006-11-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

Do i worth all those unwanted things and unwanted feelings? Someone please tell me... is hiding something in order to avoid hurting, consider as a lie? Whats the true meaning of promises? Why do people promise others? Why do we have to love? Does real love exists? Do people change? Do people sacrifice for love? How do we know that true love exists?

Many things happened, problems come and go, but still, here i am enduring all...sometimes i have the feeling of giving up and letting it go...but again, will i regret? to hold on, i need strength...but it seems like the strength is fading away... will it end up like fairytales do? or will i end up getting hurt? will this scar bleeds again? Oh God...please send me an angel to guide me along....

HERE I SIT WITH NOTHING TO SAY,
THE MEMORIES OF YOU FLOW THROUGH ME NIGHT AND DAY.
THE THOUGHT OF YOU RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND,
WHY CAN'T I LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND?
SOME SAY I AM A FOOL TO LOVE SOMEONE I NEVER KNEW,
BUT SOMETHING INSIDE SAYS HOLD ON TIGHT,
CAUSE THE FEELINGS ARE SO RIGHT.
HOW DO YOU LET GO OF SOMEONE WHO MEANT SO MUCH,
WHEN ALL YOU CAN DO IS THINK ABOUT THEM AND SAY TO YOURSELF HUSH.
YOU TALK TO YOURSELF AND FIGURE IT OUT,
HE WAS THERE FOR YOU AND NEVER HAD YOU IN DOUBT.
YOU TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM AND HE RESPONDS,
BUT SOMETHING INSIDE SAYS YOU'LL NEVER BE APART.
I REACH DEEP DOWN AND LOOK TO SEE IF YOU ARE THERE AND STILL WITH ME.
BECAUSE SOMETHING INSIDE SAYS I AM ONLY DREAMING.
I FEEL LIKE MY WORLD HAS FELL INTO,
CAUSE MY WORLD ISN'T THE SAME WITHOUT YOU..

p/s:will u change for me, for the sake of our love?

twentyeight

2006-11-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

its all over babe...

somethings are better left unsaid..

twentyseven

2006-11-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

Im sleepy but simply cant close my eyes..dont know why la...just dont ask la ok..ive been so busy lately..with work of course! same old routine! i swear,im sicked of it!

Went out with the boyfriend yesterday to have a "Little Birthday Celebration"..too tired cause both of us was from work...so things doesnt worked out that well but the day before yesterday which is on the eve of Bb's n Ayen's birthday (which falls on the same day itself = double celebration), we did a little surprise for them at the Jurong Superbowl with the rest of the family members of mine!

Still planning for this coming Friday with the romeo...Raya outing with my secondary school mates...ouh well...now i guess ive got to force myself to sleep...got to work tomorrow ok!

Good nyte peeps!

psst! babe... youve just turned 19 while in 2months 5days im turning 20! ouh gosh!

twentysix

2006-11-05T11:59:00.000+08:00

Why do I smile at the sound of your voice?
Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice?
Why do I let you touch me in places never touched?
Why do I like to have you around so much?

Why do I melt at the tenderness of your kiss?
Why do I feel like I could live forever like this?
Why do I put my heart in your hands?
Why do I answer to your every demand?

Why do I tell you leaving me is not your wrong?
Why do I let you know with out you I'm not quite as strong?
Why do I take you back even though I know it's not right?
Why do I feel like I should please you by not putting up a fight?

Why do I care about you even though you hurt me?
Why do I turn my head from what's plain reality?
Why do I try to hide from what is true?
Why do I still have these feelings for you?

twentyfive

2006-11-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

He's a LIAR

twentyfour

2006-11-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

Mc from work today...im sicked! muhahaha... no kidding! im sicked of that corrupted line! Got Syahmi to accompany me to see the doctor as the boyfriend had to rush to work...2 days of mc... guess tomorrow im going to work for Mom, get my pay n off to do some shopping with the boyfriend tomorrow.. where? im not sure yet... haha!

twentythree

2006-10-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

The Three Couples; Out On Raya Visiting

twentytwo

2006-10-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

Be as smart as you can;

but remember that its better to wise than smart...

twentyone

2006-10-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Im home n im pissed right now la ok!!! Came back from work, received call from Mom n Dad respectively, keep on BUGGING me to hurry up to get home n change for hari raya visit...reason being,so that we will have more time for visiting...n guess what?? indeed!!!! we spent the whole day just at ONE house la ok!!!!!!!!!!! awesomess dikater! n that is to Pak Busu's place...if i had known,i wouldnt have rush myself from work, i wouldnt have skipped my lunch n i wouldnt have gone out ok! i would rather have my very own sweet time,just for myself, sleeping,catch the death note or just watch vcds at home ok!!! even if it means just by myself!!!

N now, the boyfriend is getting to my nerves also!! went out since this afternoon ard 4pm to get his new helmet, but till now havent reach home...cant get through his cell cause he already msged me using Hairul's no. telling me that his cell spoilt cause he's riding on his bike when the rain starts to pour heavily n his cell was in his pocket! HOW STUPID??? n he asked me to msg that no. in order to get through him..n he said he going lepak but when i tried calling Hairul,his cell was off! ~~WTF~~???

It was just not my day la ok! n n n guess what,just received call from this unknown no. n gues wat? it was from the boyfriend,saying that hes at his aunt's place already...WOW!!!! Luckily i manage to hold back the frustration over everything n let the boyfriend to explain everythng...haha..it was my fault la... coz he did try to call me to inform me that hes moving off to his aunts place but i was too bingit to hear my cell ringing!!! sorry hor boyfriend...

I wana have my loooong shower n then straight to bed...i dont wana know whoever is coming to my house right now or later or whatsoever...all i know i wana have a GOOD night sleep...! Mom n Dad, DO YOUR JOB! btw, thanks for the "great day"!!!

twenty

2006-10-27T11:26:00.000+08:00

Just got up...n yeah...thought of going to work half day but see how la ok...im just so tired..right after work,went to meet the boyfriend just to have our dinner at jp n den went straight home...its not even for an hour ok! den reached home, Mom n Dad wanted to visit all my relatives at my Grandma's block..i cant even count la ok...all in one block...yeah..including my sis's.. so we met Cik Im's family at Along's place before we proceed to Nek Long's place n den met Mak Ngah's family so its the total of three whole families.. im so tired that i even slept at Along's n Mak Ngah's place while they enjoyed the cookies n all...

These few days, i felt as if theres something that im missing so much... n u know what, i simply miss my old bb...dont know why but lately he seemed to be so different...so different that he hardly msg or call me to ask how ive been,hows my work, hows my hari raya celebrations going on n stuffs...i can bet even right now he dint know that im still at home n not at the office! wen im working, hes in school,wen im done with my work,hes working...u see, i felt as if we are drifting apart..coz u know why? everytime i will wait for him to end his work,waiting to have at least a nice conversation since we cant meet often like how we used to,but he ended up saying hes tired n all..if u peeps understand what im trying to say, u will know how the feeling is like...n worst i cant even concentrate in whatever i do la ok!!!!

Dear boyfriend,
if you're reading this, would u please kindly bring me back my sweet lil old baby boyfriend who loves me so much...im missing him so much n i really really love him...

nineteen

2006-10-25T20:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from work 2hrs ago... Hectic? Yes, it was! simply said, i hate the peeps in the office there la ok! wait...but the warehouse peeps were great! Well... Theres no way they gonna put me in the warehouse right..haha..

Chee Beng's father picked us up from work n he dropped me right in front of my flat... Yeah... the effort was much appreciated!!! Thanks Chee Beng... Tomorrow i blanja u ok! n they went to bukit panjang to drop Hamdan before they proceed to their own home...

Shag?? YES I M...!! Got home at 10pm sharp yesterday but i was forced to join my family ( including my Dad's siblings n their families ) to Pak Long's, Uncle Talib's n Uncle Noh's place which at Buangkok, Bedok n NTI respectively... n guess what, we finally reached home at 4am la ok! n i was having this pain in my stomach from yesterday till today...to much of food i guess... n now, ive gotta "entertain" those relatives outside...

Thou had a slight conflict with bb on that very same day (maybe because he was too busy that i hardly get his attention yesterday) , on the other hand, these peeps made my day... Anyways, let the pics tell it all alright!

the happy family

with my lovely grandparents

while waiting for the rest

my lovely cousins

eighteen

2006-10-23T17:25:00.000+08:00

ok peeps....today is my first day of work.. ermm...it was ok la... i was assigned to the traffic department.. my dear lecturer said that once i get down from the bus, turn around n u will see this WLNA building... so much of her "turn around", thanked God, Pakde were to send me to work just now or i guess i will ended up going back home! the working environment was ok la... nothing more that i can ask for for this attachment...

ouh well...forget about work n lets be happy ok! yey! Raya is just few hours away...n for sure, i cant wait la ok!!! wow! with the gathering at Grandma's place, the "collection", the cam whoring, the "envying" of each other outfit, plus the hehe haha, its gonna be awesomessss!

got my hair done at jurong west with the boyfriend who also did his hair...haha...we ended up wit the same colour...yupp.. we went for highlight n apparently, it suits the boyfriend so much but finally it look better on me after a little touched up by myself... n now, i just cant wait to have a "taste" of Mommy's rendang, curry chicken, sambal kacang n sambal goreng plus the ketupats... n not forgetting the TAKBIR...

to all,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI......!

seventeen

2006-10-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

it has been quite some time since the last time i update this blog of mine.... well... ive been so busy with the house cleaning n preparing for hari raya.. n for goodness sake, im done with the ironing of the curtains! n yes, if u were to see the curtains in my crib, including all the rooms, u will just give up la ok! its so tiring n i was perspiring like ~~SHIT~~... but... since hari raya its like once a year, so yar...im fine with it.. ermm...cookies were all done by my lovely mommy... n now we are just waiting for tommorrow where daddy gonna be busy with the final round of house cleaning, mommy gonna be busy helping grandma with the ketupat n lepat, but not with the rendang, curry chicken n all i hope coz i would prefer her to cook at our own place coz that is when i will eventually feel the verge of excitement...

ouh yar!!!!! tomorrow im gonna start my I.A... (industrial attachment)! im with Hamdan n Chee Beng...but poor them, they have to work in the warehouse n poor me, i have to work alone in the office with all the unknown peeps! ok...its like tomorrow is our first day,its a half day if im not mistaken n the next day is a public holiday...pathetic isnt it?? ouh well... anyway, we were posted to WLNA n thanked God, it is near to my place...very near in fact! so dear daddy, uve got to send me to work first! hahaa...just before u go for your work... n for sure, im gonna love u more for that..!

n maybe the boyfriend gonna fetch me from work if he managed to wake up on time but if not also i dont really mind la ok...n btw, im still unsure of what to do with my hair...but, no matter what, i MUST get my hair done by tomorrow...ouh God! im not sure of what to wear for tomorrow la ok! ive never dressed up formally...! guess, ive gotta ask Along for help with the new skirt that ive just bought!

ok peeps... ive gotta go...Along n Abg is here to help out.. n im gonna continue watching the match! its liverpool vs manchester united ooookkk! poor boyfriend, u missed this match!!

YEY YEY!!!! NAK RAYE!!!!

sixteen

2006-10-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

Getting ready to school for tat ~~STUPID~~ attachment!

fifteen

2006-10-15T13:36:00.000+08:00

last thursdae
Well... First, i accompany the boyfriend to IMM to get his shirts den straight to Along's place to meet Along, Abg n Ira n to leave our things *yeah! including his helmets n key!*...n we proceed to jp int to meet Irma cuzzie n her Prince before we took the train to Paya Lebar...Overall, the outing with them was GREAT... Excluding the food tat we had at Kampong Melayu.. it was atrocious la ok... even the fried chicken wing taste funny... After evrythng we took a straight bus to send Ira home n again we're back at Along's place... But soon after tat, bb got to send Aza back to his camp at Jalan Bahar.. Poor boyfriend...

last fridae
Mom started to bake the first cookie.. Its the Chocolate Rice Cookie if im not mistaken... Along n Abg came down to "help" n they eventually spent a night here coz the next dae me n Along got to finish our Honey Cornflakes...( total of 6 large box of cornflakes..) n yes! we did it!

yesterdae
Another iftar at Pakde's place... A 'family gathering' again... I had funn... As usual...

now
Been soo tite lately... Bz with the house cleaning, baking, iftar-ing, n even planning wat to wear n wat to shop fot the first dae of raya... Kinda tiring actually.. But somehow i manage to sneak some tym to blogg haha... Ok...now ive gotta get back to the kitchen....N btw, im missing bb sooo much!

fourteen

2006-10-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

Done with the chores, had my shower n now here i am sitting in front of my comp again! Anyway, its already part of my routine already.... Nothing else that ive gotta do... Ira is still sleeping... N trust me, she will only wake up around 3plus, ryt b4 mom step into tis house.... N now, again im alone....phuck! Its sooo boring la ok... How i wish mom isnt working...

Cant wait for tomorrow's outing wit the boyfriend, Along, Abg, Cousin Irma n Aza...simply miss them sooo much ok...N for sure im gona do my shopping...N n n its gonna be the first tym the boyfriend is going out witout his "2nd wifey"! wohoooo! Btw boyfriend, if ure reading tis, dont 4get to bring along ur ezlink card tomorrow ok...! muahahaha...

The haze is back... N i swear that i really hate it ok...

thirteen

2006-10-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

Ok peeps...here i am missing someone but don't know who... muahahaaha

twelve

2006-10-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

Don't allow your stomach to rule your mind....

eleven

2006-10-08T02:55:00.000+08:00

Im home! From Geylang and Serangoon with my family, Sammy's family, Reena, Cik Ya n Cik Juraimi... ok..we took a lorry there... *after so long since the last tym we took a lorry*.. it was super duper funn! *excluding the bad weather*... we dun spent so much tym at Geylang n we really spent our money off at Mustaffa Centre... it was super duper cheap ok!!! i lyk...!! but afterall, im NOT DONE wit my shopping!

Ok now, i find myself difficult to breathe....ive been coughin lyk ~~SHIT~~...blame me for my smoking habit? NO! blame it on the bad weather!! N blame it on the bad weather tat most of the tym ive got to stay at home just to avoid my asthma from getting worst...Argh!!!

Got a few probs wit bb... As usual, "misunderstanding" n "miscommunication"... Nah... i dun wish to drag it to my blog... n i dun wish to drag it into my lyf either... wat past is past... we cant turn back tym do we?... well... ive learn to take things easy or i'll just let it go...btw, to let go of tis relationship also will give me a ~~FUCKING~~ hard tym, so myt as well i talk thngs out n thank god, thngs turned out to be fine again... lets hope that thngs wont screw up again in the future ok...

p/s: bb...nothing is gonna change my love for u....

ten

2006-10-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled....

nine

2006-10-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

Im just not myself... Or mayb im sufferin from paronoia? Get pissed off easily.. n tats y i accidentally laid my hand on u.... im bad n yes i noe n yes i regretted it so much... i really do regret evrythng tat happened... i noe as a sis its my job 2 keep u feel safe n secure, but i cnt control my anger...ive tried but i simply cant... gawd! i really need a guidance... im so sorry sis...

Again some people are telling me thngs tat i dun wish to noe...I REALLY DUN WANNA NOE...!!!! How i wish tat i lost my memory...EVER!!!!!!

~~FUCK~~ YOU PEOPLE WHUS TRYING TO SCREW UP MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eight

2006-10-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

Just reached home from Along's place......yupp! spent a nyt der... Yesterdae planned 2 have our break fast outside but my dear cuzzie cant make it...so its postponed! but me n bb have ours at Along's place... n yes she cooked 4 us..*how great 2 have a sis lyk her* mmmmuacks! love u sis! After tat, e 4 of us went down 2 Atok's place n n n bb was mad at me coz i din entertain him at ol...OOpps! got carried away wit Nenek's conversation... im sorry bb....Later den we went up again to lepak, watched Hikmah but apparently it really pissed us of... so we played Remp-it vcd since Along n Abg havent watch it...soon after e vcd ends, both of dem went to their room n left wit me n bb playing cards..stupid game of his tat wen one loses,e other party had to KUTI n now, my middle finger bengkak lyk hotdog!!! THANK YOU 4 TAT BB....!!!

N thank you Ayen for "bubbling" us... said wana lepak wit us but we waited lyk til after sahur only we got 2 c his face...! n by tat tym, bb had gone home already...haiya!

btw..... HAPPY BDAE ATOK!!!!!! HEART U SO MUCH!!!!

seven

2006-10-02T13:52:00.000+08:00

Havent get my proper sleep since after sahur... now im back home again..*sigh*... i just dun lyk e feelin 2 b at home ol alone ok...but thank god Kak Su n Nadiah is here...2 accompany me...perhaps 2 help mom wit some chores...

Yesterdae, e get 2gether session was great! superb! Not even one of us is missing! n yes! including Pakde's family, Paksu n Ngah Aim...*these r e ppl whu r sooooo "bz"*... great tym, great jokes, great ppl n n n GREAT FOOD! it was super super super funn...too bad ders somebdy whu missed e funn...*ouh welll...it has been quite sometym since e last dae he break fast at his own home*...stayed on til ManU match over wit 2-0 against Newcastle...n n n it wasnt Ronaldo's luck 2 score in tat match...muahaha...good try anywae! so...as usual hang out wit Ayen till sahur tym.. n wen e clock strikes 4, its our job 2 give "every home" a wake up call....it was quite funn actually...

Got a text from Abg, askin ol of us out 4 break fast...i mean me n bb & Kak Irma n Aza...btw, shud i address him as Abg aza or Aza?? muhahaha...its a long story anywae...u noe, i noe ryt sis?? bb is still in bed...so dunno if i can manage WAKE HIM UP! ouh god!!!!! i really really really hate tis part!

~~Im pissed alryt.... some ppl r just so irresponsible of their words n promises...I hate dem 2 e core!~~

six

2006-10-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

~~help daddy wit e railin thngy~~
~~mop~~
~~vacuum~~
~~wipe e mirrors n glassy panes~~
~~fold e dry clothes~~
~~hang e wet curtains washed by mommy~~
Alryt peeps, im done my spring cleaning 4 tis week i gues...heehe...perhaps NOT OL tat im done wit... still ders mini minor thngy tat daddy helped... *wat a great dad..* I LOVE U DADDY! Well ders only 2 of us left at home...mom had gone 2 jb wit Mak Ngah, Nenek, Atok n Paksu... n tat sis of mine gone 2 nowhr...*im not bothered 2 even ask*... YAY! Later ol of us n i really mean OL OF US gonna have our break-fast at Along's place...Yippy!... Once again, A FAMILY GATHERIN...*im lovin it*
Had a difficult task early in e mornin...Gues wat, IVE GOT WAKE BB UP 4 WERK!!!!!! as i expected, he will simply go back 2 his dreamland soon after he hang up my call...tat was abt 9.30am n he have 2 start werk at 11.00am.. *anywae he was e one whu gave me e timing 2 give him e wake up call*..so i went back 2 bed while waitin 4 his call 2 tell tat hes out...But but but... Luckily i woke up n realised tat its already 10.30am n i hadnt received any calls from him...so no choice gt to call his home n ask his mom 2 wake him up... Sweet talk or scream ur head off, either wae, it wont worked!!! Imagine if u have go thru tis evrydae...It can really pissed u off ok...He is just soooooooo STUBBORN!! Sometyms how i wished i can come up 2 his place n knock his head as hard as i want!!! Argh!
Yesterdae, me, Along, Ira n Mom went geylang 2 buy thngs tat we r supposed 2 get 4 ourselves..ouh well...i dint managed 2 get mine...*as usual*.. never crossed my mind tat tat place wud b so packed...sooo packed tat ive 2 watched out 4 ppl ard me instead of e thngs i need 2 see so i wont missed my step...n ppl ard me seemed so kiasu tat dey had 2 push Along whus behind me n she accidentally stepped on my slipper...N n n...we met so many "ppl" ok.. "ppl" lyk Fauzie Laily, Suriany, Ashmi, Khairul anwar n alot more la... Plus my old neighbours whu doesnt fail 2 ask wen its my turn 2 get married? *wat e heck!* People, get tis straight ok, i will inform u e date, time n place whr i want 2 get married wen e tym comes alryt! *ermm...in 5 or 6 years tym*... muahahaa....toodlez!

five

2006-09-29T06:56:00.000+08:00
Ok...u peeps must b wonderin y im already up at tis hr m i ryt? haha... i hadnt been sleepin e whole dae la okk....n now im currently at my aunt's place, watchin ESPN n havin non-stop conversation wit my cuzzie, Ayen.... since both of us gt nothin 2 do... so i decided 2 spent a nyt here after we came back from jb wit Paksu at ard 3plus in e mornin...*gt his tank full, 1 marlboro hot 4 bb n some adventure* n den headed back home.. had our sahur at Nenek's place den straight here.... as usual, im sleepy but cnt gt my eyes closed... N 4 sure, my bb is still in his dreamland...worn out after 6hrs of workin i guess...ouh well...!

Later meetin bb n my frens 4 break-fast... 4give me if i dozed off later... *blame Ayen 4 entertainin my craps til tis hr*...muahaha...Aunt has gone 2 work, Reena has gone 2 sch, Kak Irma gettin herself ready 4 work n Uncle,ermmm...i dunno..*still sleepin...*

Ok now wait till evrybdy is out, left wit us alone... we cn gladly carry on wit our plan... muahaha...till den... Toodlez

four

2006-09-28T21:30:00.001+08:00
Through The Fire

I look in your eyes and i can see
We've loved so dangerously
You're not trusting your heart to anyone
You tell me you're gonna play it smart
We're through before we start
But i believe that we've only just begun

When it's this good, there's no saying no
I want you so, i'm ready to go

Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I'd take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire

I know you're afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And i can help if you'll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What i could have with you
Well i'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye

When it's this sweet, there's no saying no
I need you so, i'm ready to go

three

2006-09-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

School ~~SUCKS~~ i noe.... bt sumhw, wen ure havin ur holidae n u find urself nothin 2 do, sch can really b e place of interest...bt den again, LECTURES n ASSIGNMENTS can really drive us 2 our graves too... how i wish tat i have a job ryt now...*serve me ryt for quitin nbyn*... ouuh well...!

Yesterdae me n mommy went Baazar Ramadhan 2 gt foods 4 our break-fast... she actuli wanted 2 cook 4 us bt i insisted on buyin coz i dun feel lyk havin rice...reached der ard 5.45pm n e place was lyk sooo packed wit 'minahs' n 'mats'.... dey r e cause of my losin appetite! ~~SHIT DEM~~....its lyk as if dey r lookin 4 CHEAP ATTENTION from each other instead of lookin tat e food...wat e hack! true la lyk wat Paksu said e other dae... dey came as a grp, after makin few rounds e baazar,dey ended up just buyin kuih 3 for $1...muahaha...anywaes, mom bought nasi briyani 4 herself,nasi lemak 4 ira n laksa 4 dad... n me? i ended up buyin cup noodle from e 7eleven nearby...pathetic? yes i noe..! not much variety... n i wud gladly prefer mommy's cookin 4 sure....i love u mom...

So i gues after updatin tis post im gona have my short nap...sleepy u noe... bb has gone 2 his HKL 4 wat ~~SHIT~~... somethn gt 2 do wit his bike la...which im not soooo sure... his bike is his 2nd wifey ok...so dun mess ard wit his darlin ayt...*btw, if ever comes a dae wen hes broke, im gona make sure he drink e fuel n eat his tyre....muahaha....* n after tat he will b goin hm 2 change n gt his thngs n off 2 werk.... sounds lyk hes a responsible man...hurhur.... ok bb...take care ayt... ok im done....

ouh wait...i love u bb...

ok...now im really done!

two

2006-09-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

Been ~~rottin~~ in front of tis comp of mine for lyk more den 2hrs...found myself nothing better 2 do n IM SO ~~DAMN~~ BORED coz im ol alone at home,bb is still in his dreamland..*if u ask him wat dream oso he wont recall a thng* so myt as well i update my bloggy...Im kinda sleepy but i just get my eyes close...wonder y.. din sleep since yesterdae...accompany my sis wit her revision til 2plus in the morning..*wat a great sis i m*...den wen i was abt 2 sleep,Man U match was abt 2 start..haha...so wait for few minutes den Father came out from his room n join me wit tat borin match...wat a shame, Man U managed to score just A goal thru Saha...haiya..kinda waste of tym la actuali...but but but after so long, Smith is back..*i love him*...den at abt 4am..Mother woke up to prepare food for sahur *pre-dawn meal*... got my 3 or 4 spoonful of rice n 4 glass of my coke, went straight 2 my room n watched my tom n jerry cds...til abt 9am...so total is ard 7 or 8 cds...*well done nana!* so.. here i m..sittin in front of my comp updatin my bloggy...

Yesterdae got into a mess wit bb...n gues wat, we nearly ~~broke up~~ ok....
~~STUBBORN~~ + ~~EGO~~ = ~~SHIT~~.... get wat i mean? good... i tot thngs wud get better wen i said ~~ITS SETTLED~~...but in fact, thngs get out of hand...i felt tat i dun get the attention from him but on the other hand, he felt tat i dun appreciate thngs tat hed done for me...c wat i mean? is it a misunderstanding or a miscommunication?? ouuh well...if i were to tell u peeps evry single thng tat im goin thru, i gues it will take more than an hr la ok...so...to cut it short, WE R BACK AGAIN.... muahahahaha.... Bb doesnt wana let me go...n n n... me too!

risk + hurt = pain
pain + beautifool = LOVE!

one

2006-09-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.. here u go... my new blog....still under construction ok.. be more patient alryt...wait til i get help from some peeps on some matters! alryt...allow me to update u peeps alryt...!
Hokae...todae is the *countin* erm...3rd dae of the fasting month... n gawd! im doing good.. *thumbs up nana!* Ouh well...its HARI RAYA tat im lookin 4ward ok...yupp! nothing else! n yah..ive been saving some bucks 4 the *ready-made* baju kebaya 4 my 1st dae.... hurhur! wat colour?? nah uh..im not gona tell u peeps! (well along, u will stil b kept in the dark!) muahahaa.. ~~Gosh~~ tis yr gona b e yr mann...looks lyk since along moved 2 her own house,im the eldest so gotta do the house cleaning...~~SHIT~~!!!! p/s: along, if ure reading tis, puhlese....do come back n help me out okkkkkk.......!
Had a tiff wit bb 4 e last few daes....but but but...ITS SETTLED!!!!! Thanked GOD coz HE blessed me wit a kind heart! *winks* (thou bb was the one who gave in n im e cause of it)...hee
N n n...he said...He loves me...ouh...i love him tooo! mommy....i love him!!!!